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Steve Buscemi recalls joining 9/11 first responders and the lingering trauma haunting them all

Steve Buscemi recalls joining 9/11 first responders and the lingering trauma haunting them all

"I was on the site for less than a week, but it wasn't until I got home that the magnitude of it all caught up with me," the actor revealed.

Twenty years after the devastating terrorist attacks of 9/11, Steve Buscemi has opened up about stepping back into his former role as a New York City firefighter to join rescue efforts at the World Trade Center. In an essay published by TIME magazine on Thursday, the Reservoir Dogs star highlighted the lingering trauma and physical toll the disaster site had on first responders who worked to find survivors. "One of the strongest sensations that flooded over me on Sept. 11, 2001, was that feeling of [brotherhood.] The next morning, I grabbed my old gear, got a lift to the site, and found a place on a bucket brigade," Buscemi recalled.



 

"Instead of water going up, it was rubble coming down. Once in a while, a body bag was passed, though none weighed much at all. That was disturbing. The dust? It was more of a nuisance: pulverized concrete and who-knows-what that clogged a face mask, so fast you worked better without one. Somebody [would] say, 'This is probably going to kill us in 20 years.' Well, it didn't take 20 years," the actor wrote. Buscemi stated that a number of first responders began experiencing "debilitating chronic conditions" even before all the rubble was cleared away.



 

"Today more people are thought to have died from toxic exposure at the 9/11 site than died that day. Bridget Gormley, whose father Billy died of cancer in 2015 after working at the WTC for three months, titled her documentary 'Dust: The Lingering Legacy of 9/11.' It shows federal, state, and city officials trying to project strength by declaring the air around the towers safe," he wrote. "It was of course thick with carcinogens. As an expert in the film points out, wet cement splashed on human skin will begin to burn into it. But had the truth been shared with the firefighters, I'm pretty sure they would have kept right on working."



 

The Fargo actor went on to admit that it "felt good" to be back in the frontlines at the World Trade Center as a firefighter once again. "I was on the site for less than a week, but it wasn't until I got home that the magnitude of it all caught up with me. I was already seeing a therapist, and though it was almost impossible to process the enormity of what had happened, just having someone with whom to sit with all the feelings was a consolation. It's not something first responders usually get," Buscemi wrote.



 

The 63-year-old explained that while being vulnerable is a difficult prospect for any person, it is much harder for those "whose primary identity is as a protector." He recounted an incident from the fall of 2001 when a New Yorker named Nancy Carbone went from firehouse to firehouse asking how she could help. "One took her aside. 'They're hurting,' he said. 'And they don't know how to talk about it. They don't know who to talk about it with.' So Nancy started Friends of Firefighters, providing free mental-health counseling to the active and the retired and their families," Buscemi wrote.



 

"Funded by donations, it operates out of an old Brooklyn firehouse, familiar confines that offer comfort, and a kitchen table to hang out around. It will be put to use for years, especially around anniversaries, with the power to trigger emotions," he added. "'Never forget,' everyone said. Some people have no choice. What's surprising is who has to be reminded. Shortly after the attack, Congress created a Victim Compensation Fund to help first responders cope with the aftermath of the day. When the money began to run out, survivors had to launch a lobbying campaign to secure permanent funding, which finally came in 2019. It was an effort led by Jon Stewart and activist John Feal and backed by every former firefighter who cannot laugh without coughing, and every family member who pretends not to notice. Never forget, because people are still struggling. People are still dying."



 

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